Pulling back vs. pulling away

As my mother will tell you, I jump into relationships head first, and that, in her opinion, is my downfall. I'm an excited and emotional person who tends not to connect with (read: like) 95% of guys, and let's be honest, girls too, that I meet. So when I do come across a unicorn, it's hard to keep my self in check. 

Risks worth taking

Risk taking is always, well, risky.  I've never been one to live life on the edge, but sometimes it's necessary.  Like when trying to figure out if the guy you've been "hanging out" with and connecting on a deeper level than you have in a long time has a fun and playful side.  I thought everyone led with their funny, laid back selves. Apparently not.  So to help the process along,  I thought of something random but not too random to text, got approval from three friends, and hit send.  While it was not a failure per say, consider this the first and last time that he will be receiving a random text from me.  He politely answered (read:  put up with my random, stupid bullshit) the texts and asked questions to keep the conversation going as appropriate.  Whether this was him putting in effort while combating his bad texter curse or just being the really nice guy I (and everyone else) knows him to be, I'll never know.  Regardless, while this risk may have been worth taking, it sure doesn't feel like it right now.